Poems

That yellow jacket

Poems

That yellow jacket,

the one filled with sunshine

you left it behind

and now I’m so kind

to tell you to get it

but I won’t be here

I’ll be hiding somewhere

strangled by my fear

that I might still love you

and I’m a person without hope

cause I keep having dreams

about the sweet smell of your soap

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– Lena

Your great pretend

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You cruel, yellow eyed piece of shit

With all that I am, I hate you

You’re the one digging the pit

If only everyone knew


Your thorns are being glorified

And it’s too much for me to take

They’re painting you with glitter

You poisonous, vicious snake


What could we, that knows, do

to get the world to understand

That you, evil, sickening monster

are getting out of hand


They are all putting ornaments

on the horns that’s on your head

They have all been in so much pain

but they don’t know that it’s you they fled


The empire you have built will fall

Your time will come to an end

And the ones who didn’t know it all

will be aware of your great pretend

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– Lena

It just flows from within

Poems

What I am writing?

I don’t even know

It just flows from within

from my highest high and lowest low


The poems and songs

they can even surprise me

I don’t always know about the feelings

until the words are there to see


That, my friend, is why

I have my notebook so very dear

It somehow helps me realise

and hunt down every fear

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– Lena

I cry at night

Poems

Yes I cry at night for what you would call no reason

Life is just really hard, even though it shouldn’t be

I am better now, yes this is a better season

But things just aren’t good cause I’m still me


I am thankful for the improvements

And I feel bad for feeling pain

I should be dancing with happy movements

But I’m not strong enough to be singing in the rain


I promise I will try, yes I am already better

at looking for the things that come from light

I will look at memories, read every letter,

try to convince myself my future is bright

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– Lena

Nowhere near my arms tonight

Poems

You are a star somewhere

Far away, up in the sky

I can see you shine

And I know that you are mine

But I cannot feel you

You are nowhere near my arms tonight

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– Lena

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Hi! It’s been a while. I haven’t posted anything on here since September. I have a lot on my plate right now so I probably wont be able to be super active, but I want to start using this blog again, as a place I go to just empty my thoughts. I feel like I really need it.

Wish me good luck!

Loving you forever

Poems
And through pain and unfortune, I will continue loving you. Forever.

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Dearest friend

You are the love of my life

For a crazy moment of love

I will continue breathing

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Sweet love

You are my soulmate

Trough denial and painful days

I will continue fighting

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You, I, He, She

A love under colourful skies

Just us two, nothing to do

But continuing our story


Dearest person

You are the sweetener of my life

And trough pain and unfortune

I will continue loving you

Forever.

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– Lena

In the sweet summer night

Poems
I can almost feel your touch, soft as the blue grass.

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My thoughts are lost

I’m still running

But for the first time this year

My heart is humming

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A song comes clear

In a thousand words

A symphony of relief

Whistled by the birds

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Here in this meadow

I can almost feel your touch

Soft as the blue grass

Where no one can judge

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I am feeling free

I am feeling more than alright

Here, where my peace rests

In the sweet summer night

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– Lena

At ease

Poems

It’s so warm in here

So my window is open

Just like my heart

That I’ve reserved for you

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Lying on my bed

Listening to nature

As it’s peacefully raining outside

I’m thinking of you

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Even though I miss you

This moment, right now

Is my favorite one today

I feel at ease

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I miss you so much

And it hurts, as you know

But laying here on my bed

I can almost taste our future

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Yes I can almost taste what’s ahead

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– Lena

My secret

Poems
I want to text you. I do not want to call.

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I only want to text you

I do not want to call

My fear of your thoughts

is a big cold wall

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I do not wish to hurt you

With the pain inside

If I lay dead on the ground

I will at least have tried

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I don’t blame you for the fact

That you don’t understand

It’s a mystical state of mind

And there’s no manual at hand

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It’s not that I don’t love you

Believe me, I do

No it is that I am scared

That you’d love me too

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I want to text you

I do not want to call

My tears will be my secret

You will know nothing at all

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– Lena